Ha hecho una entrevista preciosa para Billboard tb:
https://www.billboard.com/music/pop/hikaru-utada-interview-bad-mode-feature-1235020381/
>I also don’t think you’ve discussed your Pride stream announcement much further yet, and wanted to give you the opportunity to do so.
>I didn’t know the word “nonbinary” until probably not even a full two years before that. When I came across the idea of it… in Japanese, there’s this expression, “fish scales fall off of your eyeballs.” (“Me kara uroko ga ochiru.”) It’s a weird expression, but that’s exactly what I felt. It’s a moment of “eureka,” or shock, almost.
>When I was with boys, I felt like I was trying to be a boy. When I was with girls, I felt like I was trying to be a girl. Nothing felt completely natural to me. There was a bit of forcing myself somehow in social situations, or seeing my own body and every time thinking, “Oh, what? Well…okay.” But when I brought up things like that with people I trust, it was always like, “Oh well, you’re this kooky artist.” I never met anyone who said, “Oh my God, I know what that’s like.” I just thought it was a me thing. To know there were loads of people out there feeling something similar, it was the most validating experience I’ve ever had. It just changed everything – my relationship with the world and myself – but it wasn’t anything I felt I needed to tell everyone.
>Time went on. I saw people with big platforms saying, “This is the least I can do. Visibility is so important.” I was really feeling that. I thought, “Okay, what have I got to lose?”
>The Instagram Q&A coincided with that. I usually notice a theme in the questions. A lot of people were asking – or the ones that stood out to me, maybe – about being gay, not being able to come out, feeling guilty because they have a partner but can’t tell the rest of the world. There were a lot of people saying, “After trying so long to be liked by everyone, I no longer know who I am.” I felt those were connected issues. It made me think, “What can I do?”
>The urge to do what I could was growing, but I was still really scared to say it officially. I thought, “Wow, it’s scary for me, and I don’t even have to worry about getting fired over this or losing family support. I know all my friends and family will be fine, and I’m still really scared. All I’m scared of is losing some kind of public image some people I don’t even know might have. That’s silly. If I say it, it might have a positive effect.” At the end of the day, I was just being honest, so what harm could it do?
>But it was still scary. I remember shaking a bit before saying it. I was like, “I’ll just try to say this casually as I can,” but I really needed to have my big teddy bear Kuma behind me. [laughs] I had to go off social media for a while after that, because the reaction was quite intense, especially in Japan. But I’m really happy that I said that I’m nonbinary. It was a good decision. All the love and support was really amazing.
